Friday, November 6, 2009

Booking Through Thursday





Which do you prefer? Biographies written about someone? Or Autobiographies written by the actual person (and/or ghost-writer)?

Me personally, I like both but I'd rather read an Autobiography. There are a couple I'm hoping to read one of these days. The first is by Terry "Hulk" Hogan it's called My life Outside the Ring. I've always been a fan of his as I used to watch wrestling when I was growing up. Hulk Hogan, Macho Man Randy Savage, Andre the Giant, Hacksaw Jim Duggen, etc. I always thought his entrance songs fit him perfectly lol. I'd definitely like to give this book a read.

Saturday, October 24, 2009

Weekly WrapUp - Music

This has been a crazy week let me tell you. I've been running around to this appointment and that appointment, working and just going nonstop ALL week long. I'm thankful for the weekend but at the same time...not so much. There's laundry to be done, laundry to be put away, some left over paperwork to be finished and then to find time to relax...and/or to get motivated to get all my stuff done.
To add to all this fun, my desktop decided it isn't sure if it wants to work consistently or if it wants to freeze up on me. First it was my computer monitor would just shut down...got that fixed or so I think. Now it's my mouse wants to freeze on me which causes me to have to restart the computer. The CPU still runs though when these freezes happen so I'm not sure if it's a power supply issue or if it's a motherboard issue or hell maybe the inside of my CPU is just really dirty and in desperate need of a cleaning. So that's where I'm going to start. At some point this weekend I'll unplug everything from my 'puter and pull the cover off to hose it down ( not literally but yeah) with a can or two of compressed air. Yes, I have even gone through my desktop and deleted stuff they've downloaded and ran virus scans and whatnot. Disk cleanup, disk defrag, etc. I even updated my drivers and stuff. The only other option I can think of is to do a complete reinstall and see if that helps. I hate doing all this junk but it's gotta get done if I want my desktop to possibly start working as it should. Granted I'm planning on updating my desktop...but not until like April of next year.
Currently I'm using my laptop and if all else fails this will become the family computer. Ack! I don't like that idea because I hate when my kids download junk. It always seems to cause some issue.

Now..onto the Saturday meme called Weekly WrapUp...

I refer to music alot in my blog. I'm also a big fan of not only music but the lyrics in the music. I can relate to alot of music and I find that it often times fits my mood or expresses how I'm feeling, etc. when I just can't seem to find the words. So...as I was sitting here wanting to blog about something but not sure what to blog about..I started going through the memes I've done in past. So here's what I found.

What significance, if any, has music had in your life over the past week? I've been a music hound all week. Whether it's just for fun to listen and watch my kiddos sing and dance or to reflect on my life as it is in present time.

How do you usually listen to music (CD, radio, MP3 player, elevators, computer)? My ipod or on the computer.

Are you a casual listener or a more serious music fan? I'm a music...fanatic. I love music and a variety of music. I listen to everything from classical to country. I can't do opera though. I've tried but it's just not my thing.

What are a couple of your favorite musicians or songs? Where do I begin? I like a variety of artists and songs. Let's see... Linkin Park, Muse, Pink, Paramore, Johnny Cash, Lonestar, Colbie Caillat, Nina Gordon, Taylor Hicks, Daughtry, Kelly Clarkson and I can't leave out the big hair bands of the 80's...see what I mean? I wont even touch on my favorite songs. I have way to many to list and I can't just pick a couple.

Tuesday, October 20, 2009

Thought for today

 I'm tired.I'm exhausted and frustrated and borderline angry. I'd be all out angry but honestly...I just don't have the energy for that emotion anymore. At times (although few and far between) I feel completely defeated. Why? I'm sure other Only parents (vs. Single parents) out there can relate. I just don't get it. I've tried to understand, honestly I have but I just can't even begin to understand how anyone could help in creating a child but then do the bare minimum, if that, to help in raising or providing for their child. I don't understand how I can work and do all I do for my kids and their fathers sit back and just....I don't know...wait...observe? Move on in life and forget about their kids and their needs? As a single mother of 4...do they honestly think that I alone can support my children? I have been but how can they just be okay with that? I'm completely on my own. Overall, and as much as it sucks I can deal with that but at the same time....I shouldn't have to. Every time my sons or my daughter ask me if they can get this or that, ask if they can join this or that...and I have to tell them no because we just can't afford it. Not on my income alone. Income without child support (or the extreme bare minimum like $11.54 a week) can't provide the extra for the activities they want to be apart of. I've downsized as much as I can on the luxury type things. I live in income based housing and get health insurance through the state for the kids plus I work. These guys...they live with their parents. It'd be one thing if they were working and living with mommy and daddy but...both are unemployed and apparently they are more than okay with that.

I'm just frustrated today and yet I'm trying to vent and get this junk out of my head so I can get on with my day. I don't have time to be exhausted or even a little angry. My cable is shut off and my phone is shut off. How I still have internet is beyond me. My bank account is drained and I have 2 weeks before my next check. Yet there they sit...getting everything handed to them at mommy and daddy's house. Irritates the hell out of me. I swear I could just cry right now but...I don't have time. I have laundry to fold and put away, a baby to take care of and entertain, appointments to get to, etc. Nope. I don't have time to cry, and it wouldn't do any good anyway. I'm living in No Mans Land and I just need to deal with that as best as I can.


Tuesday, October 13, 2009

10 Things That Make Me Feel Old

Ten on Tuesday
10 Things That Make You Feel Old
  1. Listening to the radio and hearing some of my fav tunes from high school being played on KQ92 along with stuff my mom used to listen to.
  2. Thinking about how long I was once married.
  3. Talking to old high school friends and reminiscing about some of the crazy shit we did..."back then".
  4. The fact that my 11 yr old (What?! It's been that long since his birth) is damn near as tall as I am. No, I'm not at the shrinking stage in life yet....but it concerns me that one day I will be.
  5. Remembering my god-daughter when she was first born and knowing that she's now old enough to get her drivers permit!
  6. Figuring out how old I'll be when my baby is 18. I'll be 51!
  7. Knowing that when Vincent is 20, Dalton will be 18, Jenna will be 16 (and driving ACK!) and Brayden will be 11. I'll be 42!
  8. The strong need to wear glasses when reading or straining my eyes to the point of a headache to read anything.
  9. It's not as easy to get or stay in shape as it once was.
  10. The fact that my stomach is a lot more sensitive to certain foods than it has ever been before.

Monday, October 12, 2009

Music Monday #19

Music Monday
Since my refocus, getting back into my meditation and today especially for some reason my heart and mind are more awake than usual. Open to loved ones lost far to young. This one is dedicated to Daddy, Jacqueline, Ryan, Katarina and Ryan, not a day goes by when you aren't in our thoughts and we're left to wonder... We miss you more than mere words alone can possibly describe. For now, we take comfort in our memories and in knowing that we will all be reunited again one day.